It's okay to cry

Today was a tough day.  I haven't mentioned it yet, becuase I am so familiar with quitting the gym, that I didn't want to tell anyone.  Well, here it is, I have been going to the gym Monday - Thursday for the past couple weeks.  I have a great trainer and he works me hard enough, but not to hard that I pass out.  I do puck though... I know, not very ladylike.  Well, this morning I was crying before I even got out of bed.  I was sore and did not want to go.  Well, thanks to my husband, I went, I needed a little push.  I cried all the way there and my poor trainer thought someone had died.  Well, needless to say, I spent the next hour working out while crying.  Don't ask me why today was so tough, but at the end of it all, I can say "I worked out today and didn't quit".

Never Give Up!!!

Well, I lost it today.  It is hard to explain what a fatty goes through, especially when you are married to a man who has never had a food problem.  Am I the only one who has these issues?  I tried so hard to explain it, but I won't ever give up trying to lose the weight and get healthy, but sometimes it is hard and I do get frustrated.  I just want to make sure I NEVER GIVE UP!

It's tough - it's an excuse FATTY!!!

Well, some people are trying to lose 10 lbs as their goal.  I can gain or lose 10 lbs in the matter of morning til night.  My body loves to hold onto water and I am getting frustrated.  I know it's my own decision to eat the unhealthy fast food and trust me I don't really want to.  Okay, maybe this is all an excuse.  In fact, as I sit here writing this, I know it is an excuse.  I need, need, need to break out of these excuse driven paterns.  In the summer it's too hot and in the winter it's too cold.  Yes, I know...all excuses.  Therefore I will pray.  I ask that God will help me in this battle and take away the urge to make bad decisions and give me the stength to make good ones. - I'll keep you updated.  Support is welcomed!!!